♥Kel's

2011-12-08T01:17:00.000+08:00

hey peeps im back :D . few weeks ago . a modeling company engaged me to join them for photoshoot / modeling ads . but eventually i didn't went for it . kinda regret because this is a big company and a moment for me to actually shine . reason is . lack of confident . i just don't think im ready for it yet . currently im busy working , chilling out & playing dota . so might not be able to blog often .(ineverdid) anyway . if you happen to see me walking pass you do remember to say hi :D . signing of ^^v

KELS-

don't stop moving .

2011-09-18T04:32:00.000+08:00

lifes hard , lifes short . things won't always turn out the way you want . gonna get caught real soon ._. fk my foolishness .

kay eee els le oh ong zaaa aww loon .

life is like a deejay mixing up .

2011-09-11T04:42:00.000+08:00

An nyoung ha seh yo . kels here to blog before winnie the pooh gets angry . LOL . to be honest idk what to write about . blaaablaablaa . stupid monkeys . 4:31am . IAMSOTIRED :O its like a torture to me ~ some people , just don't know what im going thru :| suddenly i think of you . i remember those times . stupid of me to slot money in ur purse when i forgot that we ordered delivery . LOL . if i would to break my hand due to fanning you to sleep . i dun mind :)) really ! heh . i know we don't suit thats why i didn't came back for you anymore . everytime people tries to disturb you . you will always hide behind me like a coward . hahah . but those things will never happen again . i still remember every word you told me to remember . you know who you are :) 9424749 . LOL . keas . signing off .

PS:if i were to know you again . i will chase you like how i did before .

i feel pain too .

2011-08-28T00:31:00.000+08:00

sorry . thats the only way for me to let go of everything . do you know how much it hurts ? im sorry if i made you feel guilty or whatever so . i really like you like how i told you . but you never care . everytime i get angry over a conver is not i wanted to give you attitude . its just that i care . it concerns me . do you even understand a little bit of me ?

PS:stupidgirl96

live the dream

2011-08-11T11:00:00.000+08:00

keeping my blog alive . :/ mia all i want . need to be active after the team is formed :O i should stop acting smart . if only i could be more humble . things will turn out differently . sorry . i guess im just not the guy that suit you :/

PS: you didn't came back for me . its because you alr had him :/

love is more than a four letter word .

2011-07-26T10:58:00.000+08:00

sometimes i really hope i understand what are you thinking . so that i change myself just for you . i don't wish to quarrel with you anymore . i really hope you can see this . you taught me how to love again . but you just won't trust me . no matter how much quarrels we went thru . its a step closer to know you better for me . i really hope nothing will happen to you . my love for you is this strong and it will never fade .

PS:im determined to love you .

shattered heart .

2011-07-13T06:12:00.000+08:00

i realise im just fooling myself . why am i trying so hard . i should have just know it better . im sure those aren't just simple quotes it applies to someone you know . its all just one sided love . i don't blame you for that . because . you made me strong . idk how . you just did . i know im fking selfish i don't wanna give other guys a chance . im over sensitive , get jealous easily . not the perfect guy for you . <3 P

PS:nightmares coming .

2011-07-11T09:31:00.000+08:00

pain but at least its not hidding in my heart anymore . i understand i truly understand . i just need sometime to get over it first . idk how it happened . its just happened . making you the first piority in my life . it takes 2 hands to clap and 2 strong heart to join as one . if theres no trust it will double the chances of conflicts . my heart aches when you took such a long time to reply . i just don't wanna lose you . im afraid of nothing except you being someone else girl . it will be the worst nightmare ever . i really hope we can be together :/ signing out . <3 Kels .

PS: as i say you will always be ' like a diamond in my heart .'

simply apologise .

2011-07-09T00:38:00.000+08:00

the reason im avoiding is because im afraid to love . im too afraid to fall in love again . sorry . i don't want to make myself falling in love with you and end up getting hurt again .

never go the wrong directions .

2011-07-08T23:15:00.000+08:00

when you are sad find your heaven , if you are happy find your way to hell .

so deceiving .

2011-07-08T22:11:00.001+08:00

my blog is 97% emo . rate it . LOL . when i look at my life . i will start crying . why do i always have to be the one getting hurt . shedding tears for someone that don't even care . you made me lost faith in myself . and no one even cares whether im fine . i want a simple life . not a life with you haunting me 24/7 . it hurts so much that even when im tired i can't sleep . remembered those hard times we were facing . i remember how we started . i remember how you changed my life . i remember my sweetest smile with you . i remember how you teach me to love . i remember how much i did for you . but girl . babykels is no longer there anymore . without babypooh around .

PS: i will move on .

BOOWOOO~

2011-07-06T00:41:00.000+08:00

im the most selfish guy on earth . who don't believe ? whos not ? why do i spend so much time stalking on your account ? i really don't know why . peoples say time will heal but why do i think that as time pass im missing you more and more badly . why when i walk in the rain i will always remember you . i feel so weak and moodless . girl i really miss you like a grown up child that miss his childhood . i may look like a strong guy infront of you . but actually im just a indicisive kid .

for someone whose birthday is in 3 days time .

2011-07-04T16:13:00.000+08:00

someone that used to be my everything . but now a friend that will always be there for me when im down . (:
Gina Teo XIAOGUI . i know you dun like your chinese name . :)) sorry for not able to be there for your birthday . the mrs jingna . happy happy birthday .

when you have money you are a dog . when you don't you are worst than dogs .

2011-07-04T11:43:00.000+08:00

damn fked up . i swear . from now on i will trust no one but myself . don't really know what i want ._. can entertain me ?

Good Bye .

2011-06-30T07:05:00.001+08:00

Farewell . Kel Is Gone .

i need a doctor .

2011-06-27T18:23:00.000+08:00

i feel so sick these few days . agh . kels leung zhao lunn . now officially looking for jobs who wanna hire him ? he is great in numbers ? :)) i wonder if anyone comes here to view my post . ._. stomach problems again . god bless me .

emoveryou .

2011-06-19T05:49:00.000+08:00

good morning ladies and gentlemen . here to post for my daily reader again :P . heh . when can come out must text us uhhs . :)) . got time call me also uh . im very free and happy to chat now (i have my voice back) :) be a good girl and stay at home ah . anyone wanna go out ? text me ;/

PS: anyone believe in tri personality ? split is normal . but tri is kinda weird .

it feels like insomnia :/

2011-06-16T07:26:00.000+08:00

sometimes i wonder how many readers are there out there :/ my blog is just a piece of junk . LOL . have stopped work already . now im free . guys feel free to contact me and ask me out . when i have alot of time now . movies soon please . i really hate peoples that make friends for advantage . really cheapo . ._. . just because of some minor conflicts they fall apart . cannot stand peoples like that . when you need help you come to me . when you don't you just simply find other friends . MOVE ON >
slept till 3am plus , went for *supper ?* with dota cliques . thanks hara DA GE for the treat AGAIN . the day still young need to find more interesting things to share with you guys . hit me back peeps . <3

booooo .

2011-06-14T04:26:00.000+08:00

post for my special daily reader eh . LOL . you never tag yourself . tsk . just hope that you can faster come out and play with us . staying at home sucks right ? i know i know . be a good girl and stay at home and not let your parents worried okeas ! HEEEEES . See you Soon . :P

yours . now im gone .

2011-06-09T05:05:00.000+08:00

gave my life to an devil . how cool is that . claps* . you never try at all . i tried so hard putting this relationship together . now its all too late . whatever things shall end . im gonna perish & turned into demon workers .

pooıq ɥʇıʍ ⅄∀Ԁ noʎ ǝʞɐɯ ıııʍ ı :sԀ

if only i can control time

2011-05-22T20:40:00.000+08:00

fml . im the invisible man . STRONK . tmd . nothing matters now . i wanna party all night long .

im terrified

2011-05-21T06:07:00.000+08:00

i fking cry in my fking shop . im so vex right now .i just wish to have someone i can talk to . i feel like im stabbed in my heart . it really really hurts .

girl . i love you .

2011-05-20T23:10:00.002+08:00

i wanna move to a far far place . i want to mia . i want to forget you . i want to move to a place near the seas . when im down the sea will be my best companion . i wanna shout out loud . the reason i didn't text you first is because i want you to text me first get it ? whenever im down you are not really there . i really feel that i love you girl . can you feel it ? you are so incredible . that make me cried for you . i talked to you because i want our relation to become better . i stop talking because im shy and loss of words . everytime my phone rang im just hopping its you . don't ask me why so sudden . my heart tells me to do so . idw to lose someone like you . i tend to get fking jealous when guys post at your fb wall . i think of you too much thats why i have you in my dream . im not gonna be another idiot boyf that hurts you deeply . im only gonna be yours forever . a guy who will catch you when you fall , a guy that will be by your side no matter what , a guy who will never let you go . a guy that will try to be whatever you wanted him to be . girl i seriously love you .

if only this world has no emotions .

2011-05-20T11:08:00.000+08:00

when a person thinks too much he will go crazy . from now on people who tag on my chatbox and not exposing themself . will not be entertained . when i finally gotten over her . then come another her . having you with me but your soul not with me . 네가 나를 위해 동일한 감정을 가지고합니까 ?

2011-05-18T22:56:00.000+08:00

Kel Leung Died This Morning .

lovestrikes ~

2011-05-18T19:56:00.000+08:00

sorry im fading away . idk why i feel so wierd with you . those wierd feelings unexplainable . i feel super bliss being cared by you . the reason im holding back is because im afraid to lose you . im sorry for falling in love with you . i shall stop my foolishness .

PS: how come things turned out this way . kels *

emoveryou .

2011-05-17T03:01:00.000+08:00

hey peoples ! why why why kel everytime so emo :/ . he have this wierd feelings when someone to seems to dun care or get close to someone else . i guess this is love ? special someone else . stupid humble kel .

Friday The 13th Outing .

2011-05-14T16:23:00.000+08:00

to say the outing was quite a success . just that only me and ahbui from RoY . tsk . airplanes . met UnclebAy And IU . a real success . meet kmd and IU at bedok inter . after that we head down to home ground colossus . but went to macpherson . till 6.30 . can't get a cab to bugis and we are super late . LOL . damn joke . but it was a totally unlucky day for kmd . HAAAAAAAAAAAA . cannot stop the laughing . head down to bugis to meet unclebay ben , anny for steamboat . bui then joined us . all the WAY teasing him till he cannot tahan . went to topone to take a look . my sis leaving tmr alr . best wishes to her . heard so many wierd news from them and so many not working there anymore . first is the F4 batch one . then the F4 batch two . then everyone after that . topone days without the F4s is a big problem . altot we gave some minor problems . overall we did our job giving 110% in service . no customer complains for F4 batch 2 . i suppose . besides . F4 = multi tasker . you can put us arrange us anywhere and we will still get the job done right . im kel . i tried to pull in every customer for you all . i mingle with customers to make them feel that we are much more friendly . but management just don't seems to treat us right . if you are smart enough you will know this day will come . need help or advice ? call me . i have a plan . promotion wise or service wise . i can make a difference . i know you are good . but im just jolly well better . i dun need experience . what i got is creativity . went to pool at fusion after that . because we can't decide to watch what movie .
again non stop laughing . LOL . after that unclebay drive us back to colossus . THANKS ALOT UNCLE ! HEEHEE . a uncle more like a brother to us . im youngest in the clique :x too bad kena tua by sk , hara and the remaining RoY's . Tsk . hand tired alr . LOL . Buhbyes !

you gotten me .

2011-05-14T14:29:00.000+08:00

i feel like a fking empty kid . a kid that don't know what he wants . a kid that is disliked by everyone . a kid that needs to be control . a guy that cries over a bitch who didn't want him . a guy that talk more with his fist then mouth . A FKING FAIL GUY KEL .

never failing .

2011-05-14T13:45:00.000+08:00

Good players practice until they get it right, great players practice until they never get it wrong . be determined talk like a leader and aim high never fear of falling .

FUCK YOU ALL .

2011-05-11T23:21:00.001+08:00

THE NEXT FUCKER THAT PROVOKES ME GETS IT .

going crazy you bitch !

2011-05-11T18:55:00.000+08:00

fmlfmlfml . great i finally got some money back . who can grant me some of my wishes ?

you will never be the last in my mind

2011-05-08T23:06:00.001+08:00

kel keep emoemo . he felt so guilty . giving up someone he liked for so long and done so much for her . the reason he gave up is because he felt that he is a lousy boyf . he wanted to see her so much that he took a taxi and went to find her for only 5mins and went back . when they were supposed to meet she always put airplane . when kel knows that she is tired he went to buy foods and share the dinner together . kel also brought herbal tea since she likes fried foods . kel buy dinners for her almost everyday to her work place because the food there sucks . when she is drunk kel went to pick her up and send her home after work . when she is too tired to walk kel will always carry her . there was one time when the lift is at other level . kel climbed the stairs . kel finds all ways to help her with her works . took raps for her and help speak good words when the co workers criticize her . she always give kel cold shoulders kel also work overtime till she end work then go home . when her house electricity cut off he will fan her to sleep then help her do housework . when she wake up bring her to her work place . when she not feeling well he will buy alot alot breads and bring up her house so that she wont be lazy or tired to get something to eat . on kel's birthday she was not there . kel was waiting for her return . in the end the next day she gave kel attitude . kel is just happy to see her and wants to talk to her but she changed . life is just so unfair to him right ? ;/

hey party peoples .

2011-05-07T04:44:00.000+08:00

hai . kels here again . i promise i will blog often . can't wait to get my pay . almost dry alrs . its magical isn't it ? have been seeing wierd things in my shop recently . i feel that theres someone watching me while im doing things . always on my right side . cool rights ? have been reforming team since jkjx not into it anymore . klzl never stops thinking . recruited new members . jocey , han and panda . cool ? but joceys needs training . and please dun call me shifu :x . hope you see this so that you will work hard . LOL .

Admin Of RoY.LuNatiC / Kels .

Misery Don't Just Stop Here .

2011-05-04T22:29:00.000+08:00

haven been posting lately . due to long hours of work and gaming . shoutout to someone out there . #9424749 . hope you are doing fine . now i realise love doesn't make the world go round it makes the ride worth awhile . damn i need helps on my blog . signing off earthlings

the helpless feeling came again .

2011-04-11T19:30:00.000+08:00

damn god making a god damn life for me . i used to have everything . but now im left with almost nothing . 3more weeks gonna say byebye to my house . damn it . feeling so helplessly . how i wish someone is there to overcome this together with me . please help me .

love strikes .

2011-04-03T06:26:00.000+08:00

i kinda miss gtjn -.- this feeling sucks . but i can't help it . i tot i forgot about her but the feeling came back . how ? should i talk to her ? i just hope this is not another mistake im gonna make . i feel real happy when im with her . but im hurt most with her . after taking on so many things i can't still handle my rs . this sucks . to the previous you . im sorry for letting you feel so close to me . i guess im just treating you as a replacement . thats why i didn't iniate to text you first .

life kinda suck actually part 2

2011-04-01T21:36:00.000+08:00

have been trying to erase you away since you dun wanna talk to me anymore . but why is it so hard . why is this feeling so super wierd . maybe you can explain to me ?

Quote For The Day .

2011-04-01T05:50:00.001+08:00

"We can't live our lives for all their worth, until we learn to love like we won't get hurt"

im so happy !

2011-03-30T20:46:00.000+08:00

hello all . im back with popular demand . LOL. like shy sia . hehe . im so fking tired sia . my stomach fail me agn everytime ache but duno why . took off this week on friday and saturday . hehe . but still duno how am i gonna spend it . i just love how my life is right now . i dun give a damn about whats gonna happen . no burden no nothing . damn siok only laaa . you guys wont know the feeling one .

time strikes .

2011-03-28T22:55:00.000+08:00

im sorry for letting you go . but i can't be selfish and make you stay . how i wish i can stand up and face this . aghhhhh . fk man . how am i gonna let you slip by :(

life kinda suck actually .

2011-03-28T03:17:00.000+08:00

now we are on 1.4k debt . songbo . you happy ? just too tired over things . whats wrong with peoples nowadays ?

it takes 2 hands to clap 2 person to go on and 1 relationship standing strong .

2011-03-27T09:24:00.001+08:00

okeas all . Im injured . My right ankle rusted . My right hand swollen . My Intestine having problems due to heavy vomiting . I vomit everything i ate . I just can't take it anymore . tiring days . Jx bro . You takecare of yourself . No matter what you have me with you taking on frontlines together . Get back on . Rmb what i said and you will be fine . Girl . Simple enough . I will just say here . I don't wanna be your brother can ? After all these days . Im just gonna be a brother to you ? Telling me you miss me whatever and so on as a BROTHER ? Listen . I don't wanna be your brother get it ? I have this wierd feelings for you
and i can't describe it . Just ignore me can ? Make me get more dishearten can ?

im sorry .

2011-03-24T21:39:00.000+08:00

my time is just too tight . my mum's putting my on an edge . i can't think anymore . im just plain too tired . hey girl . if you think those words are offensive . i apologize sorry . but im just too stress i really can't think of anything . im sorry for showing my emotions to you .

if this goes on . im leaving .

2011-03-23T20:19:00.000+08:00

guess what ? a stranger call me today and asked me to locate my mum . what trouble has she got into again ? i am fking sick and tired of all these nonsense . damn fked up . going crazy any moment .

should i go ?

2011-03-22T21:00:00.001+08:00

i have thoughts to leave sg . but it takes more then courage to overcome that . farewell to mum fare well to brothers and sisters . and you . time is ticking . i need to make a decision fast . i cannot stay here and wait for debtors come up our house to look for you . so CAN YOU PLEASE STOP BORROWING MONEY .

its time soon i guess .

2011-03-22T01:29:00.000+08:00

im so nervous . how ? i do have some special feelings towards you . but im too shy to express them . how ? can you help me out a little ? can you feel my love ? what am i gonna do if i fail . im tired . i need you by my side .

i need a little good luck . :/

2011-03-19T01:50:00.000+08:00

helloah . its 1.27am . im here to post again . must mantain :) i work colossus so that i have enough time to enjoy . now . im stucked with a 12hrs shift . how cool is that . no need enjoy alreadis . im scared . im afraid one day i will just fall ill . which i can't afford to . mummy send me a touching msg today . in chinese . ' Son , This Year I Cannot Give You A Good Life . If Anything Happens At Home , You Don't Need To Care So Much . Next Year I Promise You I Will Give You A Good Life . Im Sorry . Please Forgive Mummy . ' hais . im tired of all these . i work so hard to pay ur debt . im sucked dry alrdis . sorry i don't print notes . don't always call me when i get my pay . you talk to me . i eventually will talk back . stop making false promises . lie lie lie and lie . stop your gambling habit and i will eventually change . my attitude towards you . im not angry . im just ashamed that my mum have to borrow money from my friends . and in the end let me know that you don't have enough money to pay them back . please stop doing these stupid nonsense . im tired . i work to save money and get married not working for you to gamble them away . you lost yours . dun lose mine . change and everything will be good .

i do remember mummy :)

2011-03-17T23:23:00.000+08:00

today is a special day . firstly its my mummy's birthday . almost forgot about it . but due to work we didn't celebrate this year . i wishes you good health and luck mummy :) .

내가 가자해야합니까?

2011-03-16T01:17:00.000+08:00

im feeling so sick -.- whos gonna guide me along the remaining path . real sexy voice i have now . oh ya . happy birthday joreen sorry i didn't turn up for your chalet . hope you have fun . haha . i was trying to shout just now but dun have voice to . okeas dun talk so much le . everyone please take care of yourself . lousy weather we have lately . ciaoz

PowerFul Voice

2011-03-15T10:44:00.000+08:00

a sorry too hard to accept .

2011-03-15T05:16:00.001+08:00

it has been a long time since i last blogged . well . dun really have time to do so actually . ok anyway im back here . will update often . its a promise :) . i now over at geylang colossus . no long at macpherson . feel free to come down support me . looking for friendly draft for dota too :) . but also terms and conditions apply . these few days i saw many people that i haven seen for a long time . hope all have been doing well . hopefully japan can overcome this encounter as well . okeas . i have to say that i really hate my rs life . not really doing well . but theres no other choice . just stay ahead and see what you really need . and of cos . not like bitches like her . !@#$%^ . okeas . LOL . i apologize for my profoundly used words . :/ . okeas peoples . hang around you can comment on my chatterbox . will get back to you shortly :) buhbyes .

sugo haseyo . Luna .

well this is touching .

2011-01-31T05:20:00.000+08:00

True Love: A girl and a guy were speeding over 100mph on a deserted road on a motorcycle...

GIRL: "Slow down, we're going to fast. I'm scared!"

BOY: "Come on, don't worry. I know what i'm doing, your having fun right?"

GIRL: "NO. Please stop. I'm really scared!!!"

BOY: "Then tell me you love me

GIRL: "I LOVE YOU! now please slow down."

BOY: "Give me a hug"

*GIRL HUGS HIM*

BOY" "can you help me out here? take my helmet off me and put it on you? it's bugging me".

In the paper the next day...A motorcycle has crashed into a building due to break failure. Two people found, but only one survived. TRUTH... halfway down the road, the guy realized that his breaks broke, but he didn't want to let the girl know...instead he had her say she loved him and felt her hug one last time, then he had her wear his helmet so that she would live even though it meant he would die...that's TRUE LOVE

i kinda copy this . so dun blame me . at least i admit right . lol . stupid kel need some stupidity rest lehhs . how ?work work work . off also work . dun even have time to go out la -.-

hey im talking to you . yeah . you .

2011-01-27T05:16:00.000+08:00

27 lerhhs . going take pay alrdis . hehe . promised to save money jiu shi save money . hahaa . finally i work at colosus . so i will quit t1 soon who care about your fking bonus . i dun need it laa . :) COUNTING DOWN YOU BITCHES . i hope this is a right choice i will make . im kinda finding peoples to work . call me okeas . got alot of job for you guys . i must persevere . altot this few days very tired . total of 18hours of work . kan shag lehhs . you never reply me ! hehe . nvm nahhs . hope you get enough rest . dun tire yourself out okeas . :) sayo all .

PS: if we are meant to be somewhere in your heart i will always stay .

siao liao siao liao .

2011-01-23T13:56:00.001+08:00

work at macpherson colo tonight . Is it too much for me ? Hoping to pick up some members from there but cannot find a average player -.- sometimes i think i love dota more than i love my girlf ;/ . Lol . Sorreys .

Wake Up .

2011-01-21T10:13:00.001+08:00

i believe its time to move on . Giving in to you doesn't mean you can make use of me . Listen well i don't need you anymore . I don't need a burden . I don't need to help you so much and yet got scolded by you . Clear ? Byebye .

;) Greatest Loves Luna . 9424749

2011-01-19T23:27:00.001+08:00

i know i always irritates you . I know i very childish . But whenever i see you i wanna talk to you but i got no topic to talk about . im sorry for upsetting you . I know you are tired of this word . I was actually waiting for you on my birthday hoping you would come and celebrate with me but you didn't . Nvm lerhhs . Your wish to me was the best for me . I guess im giving myself false hope . But who cares ? I love you . Im not giving you up . No matter where i end up . I hope i will always give you some memorable memories . Cos you gave me the happiest moments . One day when we don't see each other almost everyday . I hope you will stay happy always . Cos theres a stupid kel out there that loves you this much .

can just end this misery ?

2011-01-08T05:19:00.001+08:00

why you never listen to me . Why ? I didn't say a thing doesn't mean i dun care . But what can i say ? why i so xin ku . For what ? For you . Can ? I don't want anything you buy . Ya . I want you for my birthday present . Can ? Cannot then dun buy anything for me cos i dun want anything else . I angry also because i love you . Understand ?. Clear enough ? This is what i expect from you . That simple . I dun understand what crying and crying can help . I really want this rs . I want it . I regreted giving it up . But its just too pain that i loose my hand . Do you know that feeling ? Have you taste it before ? The person you loved push you to a corner giving you no space to breathe . Girl . Im very moody you know ? You know ?

loves .

2011-01-01T21:59:00.001+08:00

HE STILL LOVE HER , 他还爱她。

if time can be reverse .

2010-12-02T06:32:00.000+08:00

aghhhh , so fking stress now . i shout but no one hear . i lied but everything didn't turn out the way i wan . that feeling really sucks . girl . if you ever come back to my side . i will never let you leave again .

Mel for Mel Shuffle -.-

2010-11-22T13:14:00.001+08:00

finally . The mental man is sick . Need to rest more -.- my fking head spins whenever i wake up from bed making me to fall back to sleep . Stupid sorethroat . Stupid running nose . It really sucks to fall sick . Our love is sucha stupid thing . You can tell someone you love them but you scold and ignores them . Joke . Change heart like change clothes like that . I fall for you not because you can make me love you due to some little things you do . You are such a fool to tell everyone everything and make others change their opinion of you . Many people tell me things about you . Many ask me to give in to you . Instead you turned around and teach me a lesson ? I really believe you are a really good friend for everyone . But you are still never be a good lover for anyone . I do everything and just asked for your love , care and concern for return . Is these expectations too hard for you ? Compared to what i have done ? Sometimes i think too much . Thats why . Only people without brains don't think . But in the end . What i got ? Nothing at all . Enough is enough . You never know what i am trying to say . This is me . I guess you never know what kinda person i am . Secrets lies around . I know more than what you have told me . Thats why i chose to leave .

2010-11-16T06:26:00.001+08:00

i really don't know what to do . So hopeless . But if all these emotions around made me feel that i should buck up . :\ can someone give me advice and encouragement ? Nic asked for me . Kpop dance lesson is 490 a month . Jaw dropped . Lol . 3 times a week . I think i can do better on my own ? LOL . My target for savings is 100 this month cos i return money to my mum . Struggling thru this month ! Kkaayys nights all .

PS: G Get Well Soon :\

retired . :\

2010-11-14T18:49:00.001+08:00

lovelies .

2010-11-12T23:38:00.001+08:00

why do you turn your back on me when i try to accept you . Just what do you want ? Tell me can ? JHJA. Tell me . What happened . Im really tired of people telling me they like me and then say they don't after that . I wanna know if your love is another lie ? Tell me will you ?

tired . ?

2010-11-08T07:11:00.000+08:00

i felt like my arms are dropping out . my body is getting weaker and weaker each day . and bros , its not that i dun dare anymore . its that i wanna change . you understand ? im tired of coffeeshop life . its not right . wake up please . im tired getting chase when im with you guys . understand ? compare to my real brothers you guys are not even thinking . shocked ? don't be . cos its me . i am super awake now . i love my mum , i miss my dad . i love my job . i love the one i love . please . stop everything you guys are doing . its really a concern from me . im changing im really changing . whatever i do . i think but i thinked to much . thats why i made so many mistakes in my life . you wanna fight ? fight in stage for glory . whats the use fighting and running away . if you guys still wanna ask me out for nonsenses . sorry . i dun wanna shout at you all . cos i dun have to . listen or not so be it .

Final Decision .

2010-11-06T16:47:00.001+08:00

Now . I need a 9 days rest to forget everything . i listened to what you say . I will change . But no longer for you . I will change . For myself . Wanna know why im so angry ? Ask people that are close to you . They will know why . Don't feel like talking to you . Don't feel like being with you . Don't feel like loving you anymore . Don't feel like waking up early in the morning for your peach tea . Don't feel like getting into this kinda stupid things again . So what if i loved you in the past ? So what if i can cry infront of you ? So what if i choose you over her . So what if you tell before ken you liked me ? So what if you have many suiters ? Do whatever you want . You are not under my control . You don't have to try to make me jealous . Cos i don't feel a thing :) why ? Cos im fading away . Thats why . Im a person with heart . I love a person whole heartedly . I want a relationship . Not being a devotee . And its not that i don't think before i talk . Its that i think too much . If you say i don't think before i talk . Calling me brainless . You never think before you do anything . You can actually shout at me asking me to pass you your pen . And when im your boyf . I really hate you comparing me with others . I won't interfere with whatever you do anymore .

do you understand ?

2010-11-02T07:09:00.001+08:00

you wan know why i always scold you ? cos i wan you to hate me . and make me feel hurt till i can forget everything . duno why just ask . your name is on my hand . i just hide it somewhere . those i reveal . is just to make you jealous . rylia lylia . are all fakes . you understand now ? do you ? dun say i act i love you , dun say i act i care . do you understand me ? you are the one that tell me you feel wierd with me . i choose to let go so that you won't have to feel wierd anymore . i made you angry on purpose cos i want you to hate me . scold me till i really give up . but i can't thats why i keep apologising .

LIESLIESLIES.

2010-10-28T17:47:00.001+08:00

The word LIES appeared so many time recently . Sick and tired of that word coming in and out of my head . Decided to let go of everything . Love me or hate me . I don't care anymore . In my dictionary you only hurt me and lied to me . Your love is just a LIE . Why you lie ? Lie cos you lied to me saying that you love me . Don't like me ? Why telling me that you do ? You are a player . But im not a game . So don't play with me .

you are good but i don't know what to say .

2010-10-27T13:52:00.002+08:00

i hate my conversation with you . Whenever i try to say what im thinking i always got scolded . You got a limit to your patience i have mine too . You never sit back and listen to what i wanna say . What you want ? I really don't know . Why get so agitated after what i said . If you are not guilty then no need to talk much . I can shut the fuck up and listen to you . Why can't you ? We are not equal ? Your love to me is overall still a lie . Friends or foe ? Its not my decision . Its not yours its ours . hope everything went well . Hope November 31st will really be my changing point . Bye Peeps ! Really wish to have the job at cf . (nerd you hear me ?)

dedicated to you .

2010-10-24T02:13:00.000+08:00

girl . im no longers yours . no longer by your side . but i will be around you giving you advice . shout it out . i will hear you . i will take these days to recuperate myself . make your feelings right before you go into another rs . trust me . a person that loves you doesn't hurt you . ily . but we can't be together .

Kel'Voorhees & Kel-Lunatic

2010-10-21T05:38:00.000+08:00

who really know me ? tears flowing for good and bad reasons . along the way i gave up alot of things . since i made this choice i will live with no regret . really feel like dying . feel like hiding . from everyone . everytime i walked to the highest storey . i asked myself . will this be the last time doing this ? sucide seems simple . the procedure is the conplicating part . bi . i have so many secrets but i can't tell you . i am facing so many problems but i didn't tell you . cos i dun wan you to share the burden with me . i post everything here so you can read them . cos i really don't know how to tell you . i know you don't love me . but i have to say . i do love you .

Love is unexplainable .

2010-10-20T13:41:00.001+08:00

ahhhhhhh ! So tired . Meeting bibi tonight :) i think i will be late leh . :x . How ? Bibi . If i late forgive me okkaayys ? Hehe . Love my pooh bor !

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2010-10-15T07:35:00.000+08:00

you want me to trust you ? tell me your true feelings . if not i will never understand . why still doing all these when you don't want to be with me . if you dun wan me . let me go . if not treasure me please . i done much for you . but i got nothing from you . im not that strong guy . you should know .

PS : girl . feeling is still there . i didn't gave you up . cos i can't but i dun know how to accept a person that doesn't love me at all .

juju!

2010-10-12T20:31:00.001+08:00

hehe . Super tired but happy today . Tired cos never sleep . Happy cos someone gave me a surprise today by coming to my work place to find me . Hehe . Overall still tired -.- baibai peoples !

dead ?

2010-10-09T09:45:00.001+08:00

woke up at 5am plus . Prepare and went to find GTJN . Seriously moodless . I look like im invisible . Whatever you say i hear . Everything is like so obvious and you can still say that . I really don't know what i should do . So its a game ? I have been chasing for 60 days and you have been running around ? After 12midnight will be 2 months alrdy . 10/10/10 . Look at your fb post . You know what you writing ? Im just very disapointed now .

Nanam Barabwa Cos I Love You .

2010-10-06T03:48:00.001+08:00

3.30am . Wow . Seriously unbelievable . God ! Lead me to the right path . I got 2 choice now . Leave and go work together with mummy or Continue working till ns ? :\ hey guys . I very small size meh ? I keep feeling that i am fat leh . Faster 10/10/10 the date so nice . Hmm nvm . I realised this few days i cannot control my temper . A angel and a devil above my head -.- i know very cartoon . Don't laugh . Oh ya . Sorry XiaoGui :( wu hui ni le . Rang ni shen qi le . Dui bu qi . Hmm . No time to do dance as members are all not around . Give life a target . And aim above it . So you won't reach it . Because once you reach it . You will stop . Anyone heard of a kpop song ' i'll back off so you can live better ' ? By G.NA ? Powerful voice . Enjoy your day peoples !

PS: i shall let natural take its course . If not i will be hurting you so much .

the differences between love and like .

2010-10-01T16:25:00.001+08:00

heartbreaks on the beginning of the month . I realised i never done enough to make you attracted to me . Whenever i always see you troubled . I wanted to tell you . Girl , you don't have to be like this . You still have me with you . I sacrifice my sleeping time to accompany you . Seeing you sad always makes me wanna broke down into tears . Till when i am willing to take all risk to lessen your burden you tell me you don't love me at all . Girl you are not imperfect . You are the perfectionist in my dictionary . Xiaolun loves you this much . I know you can feel it . Who is able to be buddys when one side of it actually started began to love ? No one will be able to .

P.S :
I Love You More Than I Love MySelf,
I Cherish Your Life More Than I Cherish Mine .

weeeeee~

2010-09-27T11:51:00.003+08:00

finally i got time to blog . Hehe . Have been soooooo tired over the past few weeks . Countless numbers of sleepless nights . Dj off today . No people to talk . Boring . Wennie just came back from vietnam !!!!!!!!!! Tmf meeting up soon . Jenson bro coming out on this sat . Like finally . Sometimes i realised i gave up many things . But in the end i live to regret it . But sometimes i feel like im wasting time . Being stubborn . Hmm ? How ?

Changed Of Heart

2010-08-14T16:41:00.003+08:00

hehe . One week never blog alrdy . Our Super DaCong going back china today @ 12midnight flight . Bon Voyage ! Haa . Pain is still there . Hey . See you on tues . Hehe .

KNNB .

2010-08-07T12:33:00.001+08:00

i am so stressful right now . I dun understand what are you trying to say . Can you just jolly well get straight to the point ? Will you understand ? You don't . You never will . Unless you make it clear . Keep giving false hope will make one suffer more its 12 plus now and theres still no news of you . I am fking angry now . Who the hell called me ytd . I dun know you i call you for what . Seriously damn dulan you understand ? Blood boiling alrdy . Fk this world la . _|_

Restless .

2010-07-25T11:35:00.001+08:00

what you want from me . I have nothing now . Nothing to my name . I work 13hrs a day for the fking small amount . I have no time for nonsense . I am tired . I really am . I don't wish to go thru all these again . I was ill due to my long hours of work . Fking hell can't sleep at night . I need to numb myself to get some sleep . My dreamlands are all nightmares . People dying people killing . Please . I only want you to change . Cos what you are doing now is not a student should do .

@QQ:5 years might be long but i will wait .

im sorry . But i love you :(

2010-07-19T12:56:00.001+08:00

i am really confused now . Forgive me for doing all these . The feeling is just not right . Sorry . Please don't waste your time on me .

2010-07-18T17:08:00.001+08:00

haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaai ! Kel is tired :( he wants to stop everything but he can't :( howhowhow ? Lazy post lerhhs ! All for nao . BIYAM !

i am really tired .

2010-07-13T01:35:00.000+08:00

i am super stress right nao . how ? :( . my dear stupid girl still sleeping . like pig only . heh . sleep soundly ah girl x3 . will text you in the morning de . hee . quiting topone soon . since they don't appreciate my hardwork . hai . people . instead of jumping down from buildings why not jump from building to building . heh . my girlgirl wake up le !

Its Not The End .

2010-07-09T02:33:00.000+08:00

will like to post when i can so will like to do it nao . days have been tiring for me these few days . would like to thanks those that have been to great help esp nic . thanks alot bro . i have been poor but im happy . i becomed filial . really happy to meet baoliang and benny at topone . you guys never stopped making me laugh . esp benny . joke . our mr ye wen . and stupid girl girl . hope you see this . thanks alot for those care and concern . its good that you listened to me . and you slept before 1.45 am or i will kill you ! i woke up to spy on you . heeeeee . if you have any problems or you need someone to talk to . you can always call me . and dun gamble too much . theres many backstabbing in topone . but we figured it out . and we just play along . hey . hell you mother fk . you think we dumb ? dun make my teeths drop la . you wont earn our respect . you never will . fking lack title . me , nic , benny , baoliang cfm give you cui . our super dacong have 20 plus days left . omg . one by one leaving . kelly is gonna faint . hee . 2 more weeks to my 1 million dollars . lol . no la i tua pao one :x
cyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa .
x33
Kel'Voorhees .

Heh Heh ~

2010-07-07T01:55:00.000+08:00

i was force to post today . cos someone asked me to update my blog . but never update her own one . LOL . funny ah stupid girl . i think i need a rest . times have been hard but so ? we still have to live as lifes goes on we will start to become more sensible . agree ? aiya dun know la . haa . login off . stupid girl . dun snatch bill from me leh . LOL

x33QQ

How ? Tell Me .

2010-06-29T16:02:00.003+08:00

firstly thanks cheryl for th cool bs . Lol . Okkaayy . I went to work w/o my formal . Wtf . Nvm . I really don't understand . Why you choose to wait . And i had to wait for you . I have lots of things to say . But i don't know how to express those feelings to you . You are waiting for him . But i will be waiting for you . Watch wedding dress mv by taeyang and you will know why i told you everything . Topone suzanne farewell party . Lol . Make all our staffs blush . Joke joke . Loging off naozxcv !

KPop Again .

2010-06-28T23:26:00.000+08:00

Look At Me (TaeYang)

TopOne S2 World Cup .

2010-06-20T12:43:00.003+08:00

. . . . . . BAMMM scared right ? Lol . I wonder why people make horror and violent flims ? And then rate them M18 _|_ . JIALAT make me idolize Jason Voorhees . Super killing machine .
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my friend dun know what is irritating . How ?

2010-06-18T19:59:00.001+08:00

yuhbasaeyo . 230 is back to post agn . Many things to post today . Firstly once again happy 19th birthday to justin . Bieber . -.- lol . Birthday come farewell chalet was great . Xcept . Nvm . Tired . Have been sleeping late these few days . Btw . How come those customers at my work place say i look like korean ? -.- my eyes so big leh . lol . Finish work le . Haa . Hungry . Lazy post le . Byebye .
PS: If I Don't Love You No More .

Specially Post

2010-06-16T02:43:00.001+08:00

i have nothing to say but im very disapointed . Things you said didn't tele at all . It was all an excuse . I really didn't tot things would turn out like this . Im very very disapointed . Said that i having drinking sessions is becos i don't wanna continue anymore . I need some air for myself . it doesn't matters anymore . Good luck to you . Logging off .
MoMo-Ko Is Down .

Let The Videos Do The Talking .

2010-06-15T04:53:00.000+08:00

One By EpikHigh (PianoVersion)

Wedding Dress By Taeyang (BigBang)

This Love G Dragon

You Are SERVED

2010-06-02T04:41:00.003+08:00

have been NOT posting for a long time due to the lack of time & unstable conditions . Went crazy ytd at work . When customers make things difficult for us . We don't call the manager . We solve them ourselves . Thats leadership . But if they are getting out of hand . Call our superior to handle them . Thats being smart . You have to approach and you will receive something in return . Think quick think smart and you will be safe . Make customers your friend so that they will feel relaxed . Crank a little joke with them and they will show you their teeths . Lastly serve with care and smile and i believe that they will come back often to spend their hardearned money for you . Customers pay you . Your boss DON'T . If you can do what i said . You guys are halfway there .

Im Gonna Scream Till Im Mute

2010-05-20T04:16:00.005+08:00

just ended my first dance lesson with suikoden . I felt alright just that my knee feel very pain . Maybe its an old injury ? Feeling very emotional now . i saw you online but i didnt talk to you . I have been wondering am i doing the right thing ? It was actually you that started it first . But the more you hurt me my feelings for you wont fade but it gets deeper . It makes me love you even more . I really hate those customers that wants my number . Becos . My heart is small . It can only fill you in .

Wanted Single Or Attached .

2010-05-18T05:27:00.000+08:00

Horro . i just happen to lost something . i wonder if you guys found it ? its something the heights 165 and weights around 54 - 57 . ya you are right . i lost someone . i lost it around 10:05 on 16/05/2010 . i was actually angry that day over what she said . so i lost her .

PS : You Know That Its Hard For Me To Forget Everything .

2010-05-11T15:02:00.001+08:00

was awake this morning . But still can't forget what happened . Felt moodless while working . I knew what was the cause of it . But i just can't forget . Everytime i recall . I feel pain . Why do i have to go thru all these . I tried to shout them all out . But i just can't . Tears almost flow down my cheek . You made me trust love again . But you hurt me once again . I guess this is it .
PS : QQ i am really hurt by you . Don't you know those words i said is true ?
Mummy get well soon . I know you can fight against those toxic . Starting a new life soon .

2010-05-09T16:34:00.001+08:00

yuhbasae yo ? Heh . Yoo brighten up my day . But how long will yoo be there for me . My blog seems empty . nah . Who cares . Nic tmr start work lo . I leaving soon lol . Haa . I hate today not enough manpower sia . kkaayys cyaaaaaa peeps .
PS : Happy Mother's Day . Mum I Love Yoo .

My idol

2010-05-06T05:48:00.001+08:00

i am really tired .

2010-05-06T01:21:00.000+08:00

sighh . i bth my work place the peoples already . he wan try me right ? make sure don't back out . never listen before diam gao ka si lang right ? you wait . and you shall see . dota today was eventually bm by some nerds . <.|c00ffff00Yun> , . lose already still wan kp . don't really understand . don't even know how to save some face for themselves . Btw Thanks Nic For Coming IN Play Your Appearance Really Did Help Haa . (Nic) Coming To Work On Monday . Guess What . Im Not Going To Work Alone . HaHaa . Updated Musics . Enjoy .
PS:I GAVE YOU UP . (:

Introducing .

2010-05-01T12:09:00.003+08:00

sor reh ytd abit blur post that stupid post . Haa . Hello peeps . From today on call me MoMo-Girrafe . Haa . Nic don't dulan ehhs hahaa . Currently organising (FruZ) Friends Re Unite Zone . Former Clan Mates Reunion . It will fall on 17 May . Bored . Who can accompany me sms ? Kkaayys im working nao ccyyyaaaaa .